Have you seen hope in the blogs so far? No? Not even the tiniest ray? God has been showing them to me and I am sharing them with you. It is not all “sweetness and lite” is it? It’s when we look back that we can see where God has led ~ along with the hope. And I pray that God will open your eyes so that you can see the hope He is sharing with you. The poem below is in my book. It is one of my favs. I pray that you can visualize yourself right there with me. It is real. God is real. He is with us.
Undeserving, sinful, worn and beaten up by life, but still I must come. I bow before You on the fringes of Your wondrous Light and wait . . . will You extend Your circle of Light and draw me in? Will You beckon me to Your throne? You are so high and lifted up, My Father, so holy, so magnificent, so divine. How can I find words to express my great love once I get there?
All I will want to do is look into Your lovely face and weep. Weep for all the trash that I lingered over and savored far too long. It was all for naught. Trifles are nothing ~ they don’t even register on the radar screen in the face of tragedy or adversity. Those of us who have been struck down by such horrors are in agreement about one thing: we no longer care about fluff, the petty stuff in the daily grind. Instead, we desire, we long to be at Your throne or better yet, in Your lap and wrapped in Your loving arms of grace.
So I must come and linger; but first, I must kneel at the Cross of Calvary one more time . . . to remind me of Jesus’ awesome gift of forgiveness. And then on to His tomb where He broke free so that we also can choose to break free.
I am so grateful for it all ~ the work of all three of You: Father, Son and without the Holy Spirit’s continuous comfort and quiet words in my spirit every moment, where would I be? Thank You, God.
So whenever we are in need, we should come bravely before the throne of our merciful God. There we will be treated with undeserved kindness, and we will find help. Hebrews 4:16
from Shattered by Suicide