Spinning a new normal

“‘Normal’ is just a setting on your dryer.” Patsy Clairmont

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Life may be spinning, but never out of God’s control.

Some of us use the phrase “new normal” to describe a place where we have been thrust suddenly after tragic loss ~ a place wildly beyond our control. What does “new normal” mean, anyway? Is it an accurate phrase in your world? It is in mine. I was shocked into numbness, and shattered beyond recognition, after my son’s suicide.  I didn’t know bottom from top. There was no way to get around or beyond my tragedy. Does this sound familiar? Have you been pulverized by adversity? The old normal is forever in the past, and a new normal is hopefully, on its way. Maybe that’s not a bad thing . . . particularly if we are able to pause, reflect, and possibly grasp, the spiritual significance within our circumstances. At least it is helping me to do so.

After losing my son, and after much time had passed, I began to contemplate what my future might look like without my firstborn in it. Without a doubt, it would require a new normal. And without a doubt, it would require God to create it. I was forced to look deep within my heart, and I came face to face with a surprising truth: I had never really grasped God’s goodness in my life before. Even though I grew up in a Christian home, I did not understand, personally, how much God loves me. Really loves me! You might say, I was full of assumptions, and most likely took each day for granted. I was too busy for reflection ~ assuming things would always be the same. There was never room for “what if’s” in my thinking. Wouldn’t that be tempting the negative or fate, as some say?

After tragedy struck, and after much time in the trenches of sorrow, I began to realize what I had been missing in my life. As my thirsting heart opened to His Spirit like a dry sponge soaks up moisture, He has helped me understand His love, goodness, faithfulness, mercy, and tender regard for my wellbeing. God, and His overwhelming love for me, had been there all along, and I was too blind to see it. But there’s good news! I am not the exception. God loves and cares for each one of His children, of all ages, with that gigantic heart of His.

Losing my son opened my eyes in another way, too ~ opened them to the invisible, but not so subtle, prowling evil monster, Satan. It was the devil who took the life of my son. Perhaps not all at once but gradually, over the years, by keeping his failures ever before him. For example, I suspect that he reminded him over and over that he was worthless, and reminded him over and over that unless he could be a jock like other guys and get the girls, his life was meaningless.

Time, reflection, and prayer for understanding has helped me put as many of the available puzzle pieces of my son’s life together ~ enough for now. All the “why” questions will have to wait to be answered. Like you, and like Abraham of old, “I am confidently waiting for God to bring [me] to that strong heavenly city whose designer and builder is God” (Hebrews 11:10). And once we have all been gathered to our heavenly home, God will answer all our questions to our satisfaction, and wipe away all our tears (Isaiah 25:8).

“Don’t think of Satan as a harmless cartoon character with a red suit and a pitchfork. He is very clever and powerful, and his unchanging purpose is to defeat God’s plans at every turn ~ including His plans for your life.” Billy Graham, The Journey

“The Enemy will take any small victory he can get. It moves from you did a bad thing to you are bad. After a while it just becomes a cloud we live under, accept as normal.”  Ransomed Heart Daily Reading

Has the enemy snuffed out the life of someone you love? I know how painful it is, but really, should we be all that surprised by his evil actions? After all, he is the best in his line of business. On his T-shirt is stamped:

 LIAR

THIEF

COUNTERFEITER

DECEIVER

MURDERER

Scripture calls him the “father of lies” (John 8:44). His very first attack against the human race was to lie to Eve and Adam about God, and cast doubt in their minds about God’s character. Satan is a master of disguises, and creates a counterfeit for every truth, which so closely mirrors the genuine article, that an untrained eye will miss the difference. He’s hoping we’ll buy whatever he’s advertising, promoting, or selling. Our first parents had perfect brains, fresh from the Creator’s hand, and they still bought the lie, leaving the blight of sin forever on the human race.

Are there days when you feel like your life is spinning around and around, like clothes in a dryer going nowhere? Perhaps we can grasp and believe this: God misses nothing. He has not left us alone or comfortless or spinning out of control. Jesus, who is the perfect Antidote to Satan’s poison, said these words of hope: “I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid” (John 14:27).

Life as we know it includes birth and death. God represents life. He is the Life-giver. Satan represents death. He doesn’t care how he achieves this goal, just as long as he makes it happen. Both extremes exist and are at war with each other, and will be until this life comes to an end. Both sides are fighting for our loyalty. Which side do you trust? Is it time to trust God? We know only the past and present. God knows the past, the present, and the future. His eyes look beyond ours to the future, where sin and Satan will be no more. Maybe it’s time to accept His gift of peace. Maybe it’s time to look up in faith and prepare for His soon return.

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9 NLT  

 

 

 

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5 thoughts on “Spinning a new normal

  1. “Life as we know it includes birth and death. God represents life. He is the Life-giver. Satan represents death.”
    Surely there is good death: old age, cancer.
    Just not suicide.
    Yes – Evil was certainly in my son’s partner that I do know.
    I cannot wait till I am dead to find the answers.

    • Thank you for reading and responding. I can’t wait until there is no more evil or death. I am so sorry for your loss and suffering. That too, will end which will give us much to celebrate. Meantime, live in hope. Blessings, Gracie

      • Thank you Gracie – life begins, life ends – and one thing we can all be sure of is death.
        Thanks for the ray of hope-….I am only 4 months in to the despair of my 46 year old sons suicide – still anger and denial……..still easier to stay in bed than face the world. xxoo

      • Dear Narelle, Oh my, four short months probably feels like an eternity to you. Again, I am so, so sorry. I can easily go back in my mind to when it was just a few months for me. It is tough going and yes, easier to stay in bed, I agree. No matter the age of the child, it is a tragic horror like none other. I feel your pain. One word, “despair” says so much. If you are up to it, I am willing for you to write me at my private email address, impossiblejoy@yahoo.com. If you like we can chat back and forth. I had no one in my life at the time of my son’s suicide, who had experienced a loss of this magnitude. It would have been helpful to talk with someone. If this interests you, please don’t hesitate to write me. I care, really I do. There is so much pain to unburden. I don’t mind dropping back and walking with you. If I carry one of your “suitcases” of pain, that will lighten your load as we walk together. God has asked me to help others in like circumstances so that is why I write – to comfort others, which also comforts me. ~Gracie

    • Narelle, Your response with this line, “I cannot wait till I am dead…” gave me pause. Not often does someone respond this way. I would like to have you “unpack” this comment a bit more for my understanding. Perhaps include what heaven looks like for you?

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